Laying in bed trying to calm the vortex of thoughts so that I can sleep. Inevitably my thoughts turn inward as I examine my day.
Did I help someone today? I hope so…
Did I get things done around the house? Meh… not so much.. still pretty sore from work on Friday. I will mow the lawn, trim the trees, and bathe the dog tomorrow.
Was I a good domanent today? I did learn a few new things today. Always a good thing. Honestly it always makes me happy to learn something new, even after 20 years of being a dom there are still new and exciting things just waiting to be learned or understood.
Haveing a moment of introspection tonight.. thinking of all the things and people I have gained and lost over the years.
There are things I am glad to have… a comfortable bed.. plenty of good food ready to be cooked…. the dog snoring softly and kicking at my feet as he dreams… a good friend who is like a brother to me.
And there are things and moments that I dearly miss… the affectionate touch of a loved one… the entrancing beauty of moonlight kissed mountains under the stars… far too much lost to the mist of time. Some things still too raw to write about, some like old scars that ache when a storm is coming.
I know why I am feeling this way… but knowing doesn’t make it feel any better. Only allows me to maybe get some sleep.
Untitled poem from a sleep deprived man.
Sleep eludes the dreaming mind,
Thoughts drift in diming light,
She turns and slips her hand in thine,
Her Eyes on his speak her need and plight,
Breath on her neck.. skin flushed and tight,
A gasp as he grips her hair in calloused hand,
Flesh burns hot on moonless night,
Her body twists with fevered demand,
Flame made desire submits to his gaze,
No rope binds yet she is bound all the same,
Please she whispers… lost in pleasures maze,
She shudders and cries out his name,
And finally sleep… a drowsy smile apon her lips,
Darkness enfolds… and all is silence.