Yesterday’s tomorrow

There are times we dream,

In the quiet spaces,

When we take a moment,

To just breathe,

Scattered thoughts,

That evaporate like dew,

As we focus on our work,

Condense once again,

To rain down,

And fill us with desire,

In the silence,

Filled with only,

Heartbeat and breath,

We quench our thirst,

With the fantasy,

Of yesterday’s tomorrow.

Best wishes -SirHanz

Calling me home

Feet hurt…yet still I toil,

Rain steams as it strikes the ground,

Labored breath my companion,

As the air becomes a hot mist,

Salt stings my eyes,

Hands slip and ache from strain,

Knuckle cut and bleeding,

In my concrete cell,

Twisting copper by force of will,

Sun sinks low,

Reflecting in crystal droplets,

Falling from my brow,

Consumed by my task,

My thoughts drift to you,

And how I wish,

I could hear your voice,

Calling me home.

Best wishes -SirHanz

Second date

The first date had gone well, tea and passionate kisses in the parking lot. This time he wanted to do something special for her. He had invited her to dinner as he left her last at her door. She had agreed, but on the condition that he cook.

He smiled.. remembering the moment as he removed the fresh bread from the oven. He had teased her.. “you just want to get me alone and take advantage of me.” He chuckled as he set the bread to cool. She had kissed his cheek and opened the door, just before it closed he heard her say “maybe I do.”

He grinned remembering how he had been left blushing on her doorstep. The pot at the back of the stove was heating and he poured in the soup base of tomato blended smooth with cream and parmesan. He looked at the clock, she would be here soon. He set the table and arranged the flowers in a vase just left of the table center. He lit the candles and set out a bottle of chilled white wine.

There was a knock on the door. He froze. He thought he had more time! Looking at his reflection in the window he saw he was still wearing the flower covered “kiss the cook” apron with an arrow pointing at his waistline. “One moment! Be right there!” He called as he tore the apron off and tossed it under the sink. He reached the door with his heart pounding, telling himself over and over to calm down.

He opened the door, light streamed in from the setting sun. Standing in profile in the glare was what he could only assume was some form of angelic spirit come to fulfill his every fantasy. As he stood slackjawed she walked past him and looked around “so this is where you hide yourself from the world huh?” She said glancing at the room.

He turned, slowly shutting the door. She was dressed in a lose white dress that gave the impression that if the light was just right.. you could see through it. A black corset cinched her waistline into a mind altering hourglass. Black heels like gravity drew the eye to the shapely curve of her legs. Yes… his thought was correct when he opened the door. She was stunning.

Snapping out of his revelry he stumbled to answer “oh.. yah.. it’s not much but its home.” A thought struck him “crap! The soup!” Dashing into the kitchen he quickly stirred the bubbling pot and turned down the heat.

She was behind him… he felt her softness against is back. Her hand slid under his arm and across his chest “smells good… what are you makeing me?” Her voice was close.. he could feel her breath on his ear. She is going to kill me he thought. Yup.. heart about to explode and ruin the soup. He chuckled looking back over his shoulder “horny?” Now they both laughed. He grinned and said “and maybe a grilled cheese sandwich.” She gaped.. “wait.. I tell you to cook me dinner… and you.. a chef… make me grilled cheese?” He looked at her.. desperately trying to figure out if she was teasing or she was offended. Fuck it he thought.. go for broke. “Yup. It’s a lot like me.. simple.. but made in a complex way. Looks normal on the outside, but one taste.. and you will crave it forever.” She actually took a step back almost falling into the seat at the table. She was shaken… he could tell, but she was trying not to show it. A smile slowly crept onto the corners of her mouth. “Alright then chef.. let’s do this thing.” She said, trying not to grin. He bowed, flourishing his spoon. ” I go forth and shall return with my spoon or on it.” Now it was just too much, she burst out laughing as he cut the bread into thick slabs. “I promise, you will like this.” He said. Again she laughed “oh.. I have heard that line before.” She smirked “sometimes they were right.”

His hand shook slightly as he sliced the cheese, good gawd the way she said that was hot. He heard the cork pop from the bottle as she poured herself a glass of wine. “So tell me what makes this grilled cheese so good.” She said, takeing a sip from her glass. He gently placed the first sandwich into the cast iron pan. There was a sizzle and the smell of toasted fresh bread filled the room. “Well ma’lady.. it’s not the dish That’s important, it’s the quality of the ingredients and the loveing care in the handling…. even simple meals can have unexpected and extraordinary flavors. ” she sipped her wine thinking about what he had said as he poured the soup into bowls.

He flipped the sandwich and brought the soup to the table. “Anything special about the soup?” She asked looking up at him teasingly. He grined, “yes… it’s tomato and your wearing white. Should you spill any we would have to quickly undress you to get that marvelous dress in the wash before the stain sets.” She blushed as he pulled the first sandwich out of the pan and popped it in the oven replacing it with another. Again the smell of bread and butter filled the air.

He heard the chair creak as she stood and her heals click on the floor. She stood beside him holding a glass of wine “I cant be the only one enjoying this fine wine..” she said. He smiled takeing the glass “oh? Is it good?” She nodded, “I think so.. but you be the judge.” She took another sip and grabbed him by the collar pressing her lips to his.

His mind stoped. Sweet wine spilled into his mouth… he swallowed, a droplet spilling from his lips to slide down his chin. She quickly stepped back and raised an eyebrow. “Good?” He groaned softly.. ” quite… good. ” he knew he would never again taste that wine without the memory of her lips.

Shaken but smiling he pulled the sandwich off the stove and turned off the heat. Grabbing the one out of the oven he placed them both on the cutting board and sliced them Into quarters. He slid the sandwiches directly onto their plates and sat down across from her at the table.

“Thank you for coming to dinner. I hope my humble offerings are worthy of such beauty. Please.. eat while it’s hot. It’s best when at just the right temperature. ” he said. Picking up a slice she smiled “most things in life are.” She dipped it in the soup and bit into the golden wedge. He sipped his wine, watching.. wait for it… just a little more..

He saw it.. she tried to hide the surprise but her whole body seemed to just relax. She reached for the wine and he knew she was his. She sipped… her eyes went wide as the taste of perfect toasted bread and cheese mixed with the flavors of the wine. She moaned softly as she swallowed, her eyes takeing on a far away glassy look. He said nothing.. just watching as one by one the slices disappeared.

He knew what she was feeling.. he had spent a decade perfecting the perfect combination. Fresh baked bread with just the right amount of honey, cheese from Switzerland aged for exactly two and a fourth years. Butter from Ireland with just the right amount of cream and salt. Cast iron seasoned with sunflower oil at just the right heat. Soup made with the perfect proportion of tomato, cream and a touch of rye flower to bring out the flavors in the bread. Wine choosen for its unique sweetness and just the right dry aftertaste to complement and contrast with the slight char of the bread. It was a labor of love. And every bite was filled with warmth and joy.

Slowly her eyes again began to focus. She was breathing heavily, her chest rising and falling in quick breaths. Her hands still shook as she placed her palms flat on the table and stood. Her eyes had taken on a hard determined look. “So… did you like it?” He asked smileing over his glass. She said nothing, picking up the half empty bowl of soup she looked directly into his eyes.

And slowly poured the rich red across the white of her chest. “Oops.. oh.. dear.. this will definitely stain… I need it washed… now.” He could no longer form rational thought and stammered “of course! Yes.. yes… the bathroom is right through… the……. bed…….. room.” She smiled a predatory grin and walked past him into the bedroom.

He gaped… what had just happened. His mind swirled with thoughts and possibilities. That was definitely deliberate.. she had just poured it on herself. What do I do now? Do I follow? Should I be a gentleman and get her a change of cloaths? Yes! That’s it. I should do that. He hurried into the bedroom and rummaged through his clothes for something that may fit her. Comeing up with a t shirt and some drawing house pants he turned toward the bathroom and stoped.

The shower was running, and laying outside the door was the stained dress. He gulped.. blushing slightly as he picked up the dress and hurried to put it in the wash. Returning with the cloaths he knelt to lay them outside the door as the shower had stoped. The door opened…. she stood before him in white lace lingerie.. and she had put back on the corset. She smiled at his look of astonishment. “Are you just going to sit there?” Her eyes were laughing and playful as she spoke. He stood slowly, afraid to shatter the moment. He reached out his had to caress her cheek, stepping forward he was so close he could feel the heat from the shower radiating from her skin.

Their lips touched, brushing softly like silk on velvet. He kissed the corner of her mouth, wrapping and arm around her and pulling her to him. Stepping backwards as his kiss deepened he drew her with him to the big four post bed against the wall. His knees bumped the edge and he fell backwards pulling her down atop him.

She pulled back from their passionate kiss breathing rapidly, “you sir… are wearing far to many cloaths.” Her voice quaverd with need as her hands undid the buttons on his shirt. His hands rested on her thighs as she sat atop him running her fingers across his chest. The last light of day illuminated her face as she undid his belt.

She was radiant. Her skin seemed to glow golden beneath the white lace clinging to her like a second skin. He stoped her hands as she reached for his zipper. She gave a little moan of frustration mixed with anticipation. “Not yet… let me just look at you.. I want to remember this moment forever.” Her face relaxed as his voice washed through her. She sat back on her heels and smiled looking down at him. “I like it when you look.” He lay back and gazed at her, his breath was shallow and his heartbeat fast. He was afraid to tell her that he was in love for fear she would reject him, it was too soon.. to quick.. but he felt it. Deep within him was a flame that had been there since the moment she hadn’t let go of his hand in the parking lot. Oh yes… he had it bad… and now here she was… a goddess of the sunset, exquisite and intense.

She leaned forward, laying across his chest and snuggling into the crook of his neck “have you seen enough? ” her voice was like honey in his ear. “Never enough, but enough for now.” He said as he ran his fingers through her hair. “Good” she purred into his neck kissing it and rolling to the side to unzip his jeans.

He lifted his hips allowing her to slide his pants off and exposing what she was longing for. She did not waste a second and had him deep in her mouth before he could say a word. He groaned and felt her hair… so soft.. slide through his fingers. Her tounge felt like it had a life of it’s own as it curled around him rubbing and teaseing his most sensitive arias.

Her nails left little scratches on his chest as she streched like a cat while her lips dripped lust down his dick. He was shakeing with tension like a plucked string, head thrown back and mouth open as he gasped for breath. He felt her mouth leave him and shuddered at the silken softness of her skin as she crawled up his body. His eyes opened to stare directly into hers. “I know that you love me” she said as she reached between them and pulled aside the lace between her legs. “You didnt need to tell me.. I knew as soon as you opened the door.” She whisperd in his ear. He felt the slippery heat against the head of his member and groaned, his head was spinning with pleasure and amazement. She grabbed his chin in her hand and turned his face to look directly at her.

“Look at me… and say it.” Her voice was like a pleading command. His hands found the perfect curve of her waist and held her. “I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU” he said, and drove himself upwards impaling her apon him. She arched her back and cried out in satisfaction, griping him tightly within her.

He knew he would not last long as she began twisting her hips and pressing against his hips with her thighs. He sat up and pulled her against him. Chest to chest they rocked looking at each other. He could feel everything, “you love me too” he said. And kissed her. His tounge teased along her lips as she shuddered in orgasum. Her legs locked around his back a she leaned back pulling him atop her. “Do it hard beloved” she whispered, pulling him into her with her legs. He gave her what she asked for, holding her corseted waist he pounded against her. Again she came, clenching around him and squeezing him with her thighs.

And then he felt her hands close around his neck. She knew that would drive him over the edge. She released him as he felt pulse after pulse of white hot pleasure released inside her.

Exhausted they both collapsed in a tangle of blankets and pillows. They lay quietly, sweat cooling on their bodies. He reached up and brushed the hair from her face, twisting it around his finger. They both spoke at the same time, their soft voices each an echo and harmony of the other.. “beloved”…. they smiled and held each other close. Tonight.. they would not dream alone.

Best wishes -SirHanz

My Hero.

His name was Dana Crumb. My grandfather. And his life was no less than extraordinary. He served in WW2 as a marine engineer. He was awarded a bronze star for armoring a bulldozer with striped tank plate and under fire using it to clear a runway so reinforcements could land in the Pacific.

When he returned from the war he met my grandmother. A tiny sweet lady that was the only one he ever met that could out shoot him. Though he hated to admit it.

He went to work for IBM and helped to develop the first magnetic storage hard drive. Took early retirement as he sent the last of 7 children off to college. After that he sold almost everything they owned and bought a 65ft catamaran (3 hull sailing ship) and on it with my grandmother took 10 years to go all the way around the earth. I actually have two things he left for me when he passed that were on that boat. The barometer so I will always know when a storm is comeing. And the brass plaque from the bridge that says “to my crew, please be reasonable and do it my way – the captain “. That always made me grin.

On his voyage they had a few close calls. They had docked in Iran to take on supplies and had their passports confiscated and were not allowed to leave. After two days of waiting my grandfather had enough of it and decided it was time to go. My grandmother cut the phone line to the guard station in the middle of the night. My grandfather stormed In yelling and when the two guards stood up he clocked them both with a crowbar, picked up their passports and they were gone In half an hour.

He was a bold and intelligent man. He knew that the sea could be dangerous in some parts of the world. He also knew security ships would often board looking for guns. So he contacted a navy buddy and got a naval flare gun. As a distress call device on a ship no one would even look twice at it. What they didnt know is he had powdered the flares. So instead of shooting a flair that burned for several minutes, it shot a 50ft cone of blazeing phosphorus. Ten seconds of burning hell for anything unlucky enough to be anywhere near the muzzle.

So when a speedboat full of men with ak47s tried to pirate his boat…. heh… here’s the thing about speedbosts.. they use a lot of gas. So the pirates keep a stock of gas cans at the back of the boat.

He politely told them to go fuck themselves or he would kill them all. One had the gaul to laugh and take a shot at him. So he set their whole boat on fire. And because of the gas….

He didnt look for survivors. Just raised the sail and off he went, cleaning the char out of the barrel of his flare gun.

And then there was my birth. My grandmother flew back half way around the world from some tiny island in the Pacific to be with my mom. My grandfather stayed with the boat.

April 25th, 1979. A hurricane hit the island at almost the same time as I was born. He knew it would be bad. The Island was only a few feet above sea level and had only one building that may survive. So he knew there was no safe place on the island. He docked the ship on the downwind side of the island and chained it to the biggest rocks he could find. The. He dumped all their scuba tanks overboard in 40 ft of water. He tied rocks to water bottles and dumped them in as well.

Right before the storm hit he dove in. He spent 2 days underwater watching the waves crash overhead. When the storm passed he spent a 3rd day decompressing slowly and then hauled himself ashore.

The island natives had checked the boat for him after the storm and not finding him thought he had drowned. So when he emerged from the waves a day later they thought he was a ghost. It took him hours to convince them he was alive and explain what he had done. Finaly he got them to let him use the radio on the island to contact a friend in the states to call my grandmother and let her know he was ok. She told him he had a grandson. And he had his grandfathers eyes.

When they finished their sea voyage my grandparents sold the boat and his stock from IBM (by then worth a lot) and bought 150 acres of mountainside in Washington state. My grandfather rented a portable mill and used the timber he cleared to build a house. It was so picturesque that the town gift shop still sells pictures of the house perched on the mountain side on mugs to tourists.

I never got to spend as much time with him as I would have liked. I grew up In Texas and they lived in Washington. I did make a few trips to see him and spend a week with them a few summers. He was the best example of a hardworking honourable man a shy grandson could ask for. He died when I was 14…. and i miss him still. I was unable to go to his funeral but my grandmother came to see my family soon after and brought the barometer, and with it a note. “If you are reading this, then I have passed from this world. I no longer need this but it saved my life the day you were born. May it always warn you of the comeing storm”.

It has hung on my wall every day since. My grandmother passed 4 years ago. The whole family made the trip for the funeral. 6 children, 10 grandchildren, and 2 new great grandchildren. We mixed their ashes and scattered them in the sea that they loved.

He was… is… will always be.. my hero.

Best wishes.. -SirHanz

So your a dominant.

I was thinking today about what someone just starting out as a dominant may be feeling.

Ok.. so you have figured out that your a dominant, now what?

Well… now days things are a little different than when I started out. When I started to learn there was very little information available and the bit that did exist was in hard to find books. So back then you pretty much needed a mentor. I was lucky in that. But now with the explosion of the internet there is vary little you cant learn if you put your mind to it. Except…. it’s just theory. And it often doesn’t take into account that real life situations are not usually perfect. Your sub may be tired, or have an injury, or be grumpy because of something.. you get the picture.

What you need more than anything is experience. This is not to say you shouldn’t learn as much as possible first… definitely do that.

Here are some topics to read up on.

Concent,

Limits,

Setting the mood, (this is way more important than most people think. Drawing your submissive into that mindset can be difficult at times. Especially if you want to play and they have had a rough day. Real life happens remember? A good domanent prepares. Learn how.)

Safety,

Subdrop,

Mental manipulation and conditioning, ( remember, your sub WANTS you to take control of them. Control is a much deeper thing than just giving orders. It’s about makeing your submissive WANT to serve you.)

Pretty much anything on human psychology,

Gear and technique.

That should get you started in the right direction. Never stop learning.

Now on to experience… so you have learned all you can and found someone you like that is willing to submit. Take it slow.. learn everything you can about your submissive. Talk with them about everything you can think of.. you never know what you may find. Ask the hard questions. Those are usually the most important in the long run.

Once you have gotten to know your submissive then it’s time to play. Start slow. Build towards the harder things. Don’t expect your submissive to jump right into the more advanced parts of bdsm. At this point it is more about establishing the dynamic than what you are doing. Find what works. You will make mistakes, and that’s ok. Just own them and learn from them. It’s all part of the process.

Be available. Most submissives crave that feeling of control. It makes them feel safe and cared for. This goes back to makeing the submissive want to serve you. Remind them of why they chose you in the first place. Do little things to make them feel controlled. Inspire them to crave your attention. But be careful, once a submissive is in that headspace.. if you deny them the attention they so desperately seek it can feel like you don’t care or like it is a punishment.

Hold yourself accountable. If your the one in control then the buck stops with you. If your submissive is acting out or feeling down.. it’s up to you to correct the behavior, or do something to change their mood. And if you make a mistake or hurt your submissive they will not always volunteer that information. Be aware of your own actions and how they effect your submissive. Check in with them frequently and make shure they are not hurt, or mentally exhausted.

Best wishes in your journey -SirHanz

The Gift

Who among us hath wrought beauty,!

By hand and arm dragging it from the void,

Name thyself unto the gathered masses!

That praise and riches be showered apon the,

Why doth thou not speek?

Glory hangs but a breath away!

Silance doth bring humble credit,

But speak goodmen and claim thy place!

Still naught but empty air,

Very well… create what thou will,

And let it be known,

That the artisan hath gifted beauty,

For none other,

Then to enrich the day.

Best wishes -SirHanz

Careing and Love.

There will come a time in everyone’s life when the happiness of another is as important as your own.

Be it domanent or submissive each seeks at the most basic level the happiness of the other. This is both wonderful and dangerous. For it only works if both people care about the other as much as themselves. They keep their best interests in their heart and see constant reminders of the other in their every day life.

Be it the flowers in the store window that remind you that you want to do something nice for them. Or a glimpse of something that reminds you of shared happiness and connection.

Often people mistake careing for love. But there is a huge difference. Love is deeper, a burning need to share joy. And its absence can be physically painful. Careing is a choice. Sometimes care can turn into love, or love can inspire care. But it’s always a choice. If you choose not to do something for the one you love because of another commitment you are not any less in love. Or if you choose to do something nice for someone it doesn’t mean you love them.

See the difference? You can hope for someones happiness and want to help them but not be in love with them. And you can love someone and be unable to always show how much you care.

I felt it was important to make this distinction. If someone loves you and shows they care in whatever way, remember not to take that for granted. They have made the choice in that moment to choose you. That choice should be acknowledged and charished. And if they choose not to show in some way they care it does not mean they love you any less. That is also important to remember.

Care can come in many forms, sharing time is one. Doing things that will benefit the other, even small things like takeing out the trash or doing the dishes just so the other doesn’t have to. Be aware of the care around you. There is often more than you think. And if you are lucky enough to be loved, show them you care whenever you can. Even if it’s just a quick word or gesture. You never know when a small kindness will mean the world to them.

Best wishes -SirHanz

Campfire storytime

Its story time again.. so gather round the campfire. Everyone take a seat.. no pushing.. there is enough time for everyone to hear.

In a post a bit ago I talked about the more taboo side of bdsm. Edgeplay. And in that post I mentioned that I had a bit of experience.. with bloodplay.. and that I may share that.

Tonight.. I am telling the story.

It starts long ago.. in london.. with the transport of a box…

Wait.. no.. that’s Dracula. 😆 but that’s what you were expecting right? Sorry.. the closest I have ever been to a vampire is my 3rd edition printing of Dracula.

Nope.. no vampires in this story, but I was fascinated by the legends as a child and young adult. I like most legends and myths. But there was something powerful.. about blood. And the connection that was formed between vampires in myths and their donors or victims. So like anything I am interested in.. I learned. I read everything I could get my hands on, from folk tales to ann rice. I wasn’t as much interested in the whole “I’m an immortal undead” aspect of the mythology but the act of giving and takeing the vary life essence of another person and in the process forming a bond with that person I found beautiful.

And then I found bdsm. And I found a submissive girl who was as interested in bloodplay as I was. I will call her “one” because she was my first submissive. It took a while before we ever discussed it as we were both unshure of how the other would react when we brought it up. I forget who broached the subject but once the cat was out of the bag.. we planed a session.

I still remember that night. It was Saturday, at the time I was still an active member of the bondage show and was performing that night. It was a good show, one watched as I flogged a submissive tied to a cross… upside down. The crowd was thinner than usual and I remember thinking they were going to be sorry they missed that night. Halfway through the flogging the poor girl was a mess.. gasping and grinding against the cross, thighs slick, doe eyes spilling black mascara tears down her cheeks. She had a safe word and hadn’t used it. Before the show we had talked and she asked me to push her. She wanted to be pushed to the edge and forced to admit she could take no more. I was hesitant at first but with One’s blessing I agreed.

So I pushed her. First a heavy flogger. Then a chain flogger. She was in rare form. Moaning and crying with need. Every time I saw her legs start to shake building toward an orgasm I would back off. Switching to gentle touches and whispering words of encouragement over the music.

I was loveing it. I do have a sadistic streak after all. Every five minutes I would turn the cross so she wouldn’t pass out from the rush of blood to her head. I drew it out.. made her beg for more. The crowd was eating it up but it was now just me and her in our own little world. She was getting close again and again I stopped. By now she was deep in subspace and the shame of being flogged on stage was just pushing her deeper. I decided it was time to give her the final push she wanted. I brought out the single tail. An inch wide at the base tapered to a 1/8 inch tail over the 5 feet of leather.

She was still begging for more when I let it fly to kiss her ass. Her voice cut off with a gasp. There was a bright pink line slowly swelling on her white skin. It was a full second before what had happened registered. She inhaled.. I knew she was about to scream. The second strike traced across the backs of her thighs just before she opened her mouth.

She screamed. And came. Shuddering and shakeing agenst the smooth wood of the cross. Finaly she moaned.. “red”. I helped her down with the cheers of the crowd echoing off the back of the stage. One of the male subs helped her off the stage and into the back room. I had set up her requested aftercare items there and she had requested to be left by herself after to recover in quiet.

I left a note for her praising her wonderful performance and thanking her for allowing me to show the crowd what a great sub she was. Then I grabbed One and dragged her out the back. We were both turned on and wanted to play. She pressed against me and whispered up into my ear “let’s go home, tonight.. you will taste my life.”

The cab home was a blur of groping hands and frenzied kisses. She ran upstairs as soon as we got to the apartment. I paid for the cab, got my gear from the trunk and slowly approached the door. It swung open to reveal a trail of candles and rose petals leading down the hall. She had been preparing this. I put down my gear and closed the door. Soft cello music drifted from the back room. She knew my tastes and used them to create just the right atmosphere.

I followed the dim candlelight down the hall, drawing it in and letting the excitement build. As I entered the room the dark smell of jasmine and amber incense drifted past my face. One was in the center of the room. Kneeling and blindfolded. In front of her were her white leather cuffs. Her hands were clasped as if in prayer, holding a blade between them. It’s cold steel a beautiful contrast as it nestled between her breasts. She wore a garter belt with stockings and a black g string, and nothing else. I had wondered what she was hiding under her long dress at the club. She had prepared indeed.

I knelt before her and spoke directly into her ear so she could feel the warm breath with my words. “Do you concent to this?” One nodded slowly. I spoke again “say it.” Her voice was steady as she answered “I concent. Use me sir.” That was what I needed. Chains of self control and locks of will crumbled, I said nothing but in my head I could hear the howling of darkness getting closer. Her desire was palpable, filling the air and feeding my own with every breath.

I clasped my hand around hers and twisted the blade handle between her palms. I’m sure she could now feel the edges against the soft flesh of her breasts. Slowly I pulled her hands apart and took the handle of the blade. It was thin… a needle point stiletto with a clear handle and brass guard. “Sit on your hands.” I spoke quietly but I knew she would understand what was coming. She slipped her hands beneath her and waited.. I made her wait for it. I leaned close, breathing in her perfume and feeling her heartbeat quickening as I kissed her neck. I knew the blade in my hand, it was mine after all. I had sharpened it myself and you could shave with it. The edge caught the candlelight as I dragged it slowly downward. One held her breath, shakeing slightly as it bit into the tender skin between her breasts. Two thin red lines appeared after the blade was free. Ruby droplets of life glittering like gems in the soft light. I caught a droplet on my finger and one took a gasping breath. “Please… more.”

I lifted my finger and painted the blood across her lips. She looked so erotic. Crimson looking almost black in the dim light glistening wet apon her lips. I kissed her. Clove, copper and iron. I will never forget the pure erotic bliss of that kiss as she moaned into my mouth. I layed her backwards onto the carpet drawing her hands up above her head. The white leather wrapped around her wrists and I tied them to one of the feet of the bed allowing her to stretch out her legs.

I laid the blade against her collar, touching with just the tip. “Dont move.” I said surprised at the excitement in my voice. “Yes sir” one said, her voice was thick with arousal. I dragged the needle tip down across and around the outside of her breast. Her breath became shallow as it traced across her belly.. lower.. past her garter.

I carefully slid the edge between her skin and the garter belt. A twist and the lace parted. I rolled down the black stockings exposing the soft skin of her legs. I left her like that as I went to the kitchen and got a bowl filled with ice. I placed the blade in the ice and returned to the room. One was flushed with anticipation, not knowing why I left the room. I kneeled between her legs and lifted the knife. The flat of the blade slid across her hip and under the string of her panties. The cold was a shock, she jerked thinking I had cut her hip. I flicked the edge sideways slicing the string and let her feel that there was no pain. I pulled aside the fabric covering her sex and It was then that she realized what I had done. “Oh.. you basta” One’s voice cut off as I thrust two fingers into her dripping wetness.

Her hips bucked as she groaned softly, I layed my shin across her thighs and held her down as I worked my fingers slowly in and out. Each time makeing her shake as my thumb brushed her clit. She came quickly but i was not nearly done with her. I pulled my fingers from her and stood leaving the knife in the ice. I undressed, peeling myself out of the leather pants and loose shirt I wore to the show. I kneeled between her legs and let my hardness rest against the cleft of wet heat.

I lifted the blade from the bowl and chuckled as she squirmed trying to get me inside her. I placed the chilled blade in the curve between her neck and shoulder, holding her chin with my other hand to keep her still. She moaned and suckled at one of my fingers as the edge made a shallow cut about two inches long. Blood beaded in the cut, welling upward with steady pressure.

I removed my hand from her chin and slid the blindfold off, I wanted her to see. Her eyes were rolling with lust and need and it took a few seconds for her to focus on me in the low light. When I was shure she was watching I spoke “life for life” and ran the blade across my forearm. The cut burned like fire, her eyes widened as blood dripped onto her chest. I could see her eyes follow the droplets as they fell.

One was so engaged with seeing my blood she must have forgotten the position she was in. I lowered my arm to her greedy lips and bent to run my tongue along the cut between neck and shoulder. As I felt the burn of her mouth on my arm I thrust inside her. The anticipation and taste of life coursing through my mind was heat and pain and pleasure all at once. She locked her legs around my hips pulling me into her with animal need.

My self control deserted me as the beast within came to the fore. Growling with carnal lust I yanked my arm from her lips and pressed my bloody mouth to hers. The thought of our life essence mixing in passionate kiss was to much for us both. The feeling of intimacy and connection alsmot burned. The pleasure was a storm of erotic feelings as we both came.

I will skip the boring clean up, shower and band aids, a bandage for my arm. Giggling as we scrubbed the carpet to get the stains before they set. Laughing about how we should buy red towels.

It was one of the most intensely erotic experiences of my life.

I hope you have enjoyed the story, now its bed time.. go to bed and sleep now that you are all pent up. 😏 yup.. I may be a switch now but that doesn’t mean I am not still a sadist.

Best wishes -SirHanz

To be loved

Love.. that one word,

Like a warm hug on a winter day,

Filling the heart with joy,

And driving away the chill,

Frost may cling to the windows,

But it is warm inside,

Come in…

The door is open,

Just say the word,

And cross the threshold,

Hang your jacket on the wall,

You wont be needing it again.

Best wishes-SirHanz

Chorus

Tree frogs chirping just before dawn,

Sun sits just out of view below the horizon,

As I sit and imagine your face shinin’,

Shadows to emerge from the silver gray,

A mournful cry from a bird of pray,

The Warmth of the cup feels good in my hand,

A finch joins the chorus now filling the land,

Dew on the grass.. dog lifts his feet in disdain,

The sun rises reflecting in the windowpane,

All this beauty.. still my thoughts pursue,

The quiet wish I could share it with you.

Best wishes -SirHanz